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Wednesday, 12 August 2009

Whew l'm not as good as Susie in losing all that weight. But l sure hope l make it there! l am looking foward to seeing her. l know it hasn't been but a month, but sometimes that seems like a long time! Well gotta run.

Sunday, 26 July 2009

Well I know that I haven't done this in awhile... I was busy doing other things and this got pushed to the back of the line. I can't believe that in about a month that Michael will be 2!!! Wow where does time go to? I feel like there isn't enough time in the day to teach him all the things that I need to. But I think that he is growing so fast!! It seems like yesterday that he was born and that now today he's 2!!! Does anyone else feel like that? I have to stop at times and just sit down with him and play because if I don't then the time will come that I wont have this time and I'll wish I had.. He jabbers alot and is slowly coming out with the right word. But he is very facial!!! I love watching him talk as he waves his arms around and jabbers up a storm!!! I laugh because only he knows what he's talking about!!! I'm starting to go on walks in the evening as I'm trying to lose weight.( I've losted 2 pounds so far!!! I know that's not alot but I've only been at this about a week ) Michael loves going as I push him the stroller. And the other day he started to cry cause he wanted to go on a "ride" as he called it. He loves it and I don't mind as it gives me more time to spend with him!! And I get to wind down for the day... I love being a mom... But there are some days that I wonder what in the world am I doing??? I often worry that I'm the mom that I should be for him and that I'll teach him right. How can we be sure that we are doing the right thing? How do we know that at the end of the day that I did the best that I could and leave the rest in God's hands? I'm going to rest in the fact that God does see me and that He knows what I need and that He won't give a bigger load then I can do!! Well I need to run along... God Bless y'all as you serve him... Mary n Michael

Tuesday, 28 April 2009

I know that I haven't done this in a while. But I've been crazy busy it seems.... There are days when I feel like I don't even have time for myself. But I won't give Michael up for anything in the world so I'm happy right where I am at!!! Michael is now talking... He say's things like: where's tippy (the cat)? who is that? What is that? I want a drink. where's Mama? :) Night night. And of course NO!!! And he's starting to say yes, please, uh? and things like that. He's grown so much I can't believe how much!!! I tend to treat him like his 4 or 5 instead of 20 months!!! I keep telling myself that he's only a baby yet. And that he might not understand everything. But I know that he understands more then I give him credit for. Because the other day I told him to pick something up and he stood there and picked up and then threw right back down in anger!!! So I know he knows somethings!!! And he loves going outside!! Wow if he can't go outside then he thinks the end of the world is as he knows it!! I'm trying to break him the habit of whining. He does that way to much and boy is that hard to break on him!!! Or he'll sit there and scream if something doesn't work the way that he wants it to!!! Well I have a tired baby that is ready for bed!!! Night to y'all and God Bless you as you serve Him... With love Mary n Michael

Tuesday, 17 March 2009

Wow there are someday's that I'm not sure if I'm coming or going or standing still!!! But I'm trying to hang in there and get things done.. With doing school, baking and taking care of Michael there are day's when I feel like I'm not getting anything done at all!!! I wonder if all mom's feel that way?? :) Michael is growing so much... Each day he finds something new to say or do... If you tell him to go find something he will and most times he comes back with what you wanted him to find.. He loves when I get down on the floor and play with him and do whatever he wants me to do... I love watching his face light up when I play with him!!! A lot of times I will go through a list of names that he knows and he will repeat after me and he sure knows who his Aunt Susie is.. He'll start looking for her and I have to laugh cause he'll get this puzzled look on his face when he can't find her!!! And oh boy can that child glare!! Wow!!! But everyone says that he looks just like me when he does that!! I don't know because I guess I don't look at myself that much I guess. I want to try and teach him some Bible verse now that he can start saying things... Well I need to go and give Michael a bath before he goes to bed as he was outside all day and thought it was great fun to be out there and he gets so unhappy when he can't go out.. So goodnight and God Bless... With Love, Mary n Michael

Friday, 13 February 2009

I did something last night that I thought I could never do. And that was put Michael in his crib and leave him there!! Let me tell ya what it caused for some hair raising moments for him and me!!! He managed to climb out and without hurting himself, nearly scaring me to death in the process!!! I made him stay in there but he was not happy about that at all!! I ended up having to stay right there and hold his hand till he went to sleep... But he did wake up in the middle of the night and we ended up sleeping out on the couch because I couldn't get him to go back to sleep anymore and I woke up with one sore neck!!! I got up at 6:30 a.m to start baking and was I ever glad that I got up that early as it was late enough till I got the floor cleaned up and with Michael trying to help it doesn't always go the way that I want it to but I want so to be a good mom to him but I feel like a fail him so much... I want him to look back and be able to say that he had a good memories with his mom... Maybe someday I'll get the hang of how to be a good mom and then everything will fall into place right???!! WRONG!!! LOL!!! I know that I have alot to learn but I think I'm learning along with Michael what will work and what won't... But he has the most stubborn streak I've ever seen in anyone!!! Tho' I've had people tell me that I was just like that!! ME??? Naw I can't imagine that at all!! LOL!! But he does bring alot of joy to my life... And I'm so thankful he's in my life. He keeps me grounded and focused on me that's for sure!!! But I didn't realize how much stuff they can get into!! Yikes!! I've learned that some stuff you just don't lay around tho'!! He loves to look at books and loves to be read to.. So I try to read him Bible Stories every night before we go to bed and he loves that... He loves it when I take the time to play with him and listen to what he has to say even tho' I'm pretty sure it's a foreign langue!!! Well I need to go... Michael needs his Mama so good night and God Bless...
Mary n Michael